Painful Anaesthetics

cobwebs must be accumulating at this site. For you ardent readers of this site, i thank you but ive basically been too caught up with living life to be updating this blog. well lets see baybeats 2005 was wicked. just to escape it all and to actually do something you enjoy was enriching to say the least. The company was great too, from the normal crazy cum wacky cum spontaneous cum superhardcore frens from yesteryears like y,fart,faizal,azhani,zahiron to the newly found crew of prosaicmagazine, it was possibly one of the best weekends of the year. rock on guys lets do it again sometime soon.

It was a pretty spectacular baybeats, with fireworks and all coinciding with some of the performances on show on saturday due to the rehearsals for the national day parade. Glad to say at one time i actually had 3 videocams with me to capture the best of baybeats. And capture it we did. In the process of transferring the footage into possibly a vcd, so anyone interested in buying raw footage of Baybeats 2005, do contact me.

Following the hurrah of baybeats, it was then a tumultuous month at work, with crazy work making me stay back till late for most of the days due to an upcoming inspection. Had fun kicking it with friends from camp though as i felt more at ease with the people there and found it easier to express myself. Oh and i'm gonna go back to tekong for BMT recourse for 7 weeks from october 10. Should be interesting.... i'll miss the weekdays at home though. *tear* oh well.. haha

On a nerdier side, me and mr 'monyeh monyeh' have been playing warcraft 3 in LAN shops like rabid dogs chasing meat. It's crazy and it totally reminds me of the phase in my life whereby i was so addicted to Counterstrike that i would splurge every available ounce of money on it. Ahhh a guy's life is never complete without video games fo sho! :):):)

SOCCER SOCCER SOCCER
The english premier league season has also gotten underway. This will occupy most of my weekends as i will be hooked onto the tv screen watching Liverpool's every game. Been hanging with crazy bacins to watch these matches. Anyone who's interested please do contact me too. The more the merrier!

Undergrad / Underwear
Thinking of applying for all universities in sight. If only if it were that simple to get into one.

ok then why dont you sit back and enjoy pictures from baybeats aand etc. as i will post them up soon enough. till next time, may the force be with you. Signing off, Fauzi-Wan Kenobi

Intermitten Messages and Hopeful Dreams

Annoying people im working with are making me feel more disillusioned with life as a whole. the inability to get away from them is really troubling. the fact i have to endure these people for the next 1 yr plus is very hard to imagine. Guess i'll have to take more anti-depressants and hope for the best. Met up with frens i havent met up with for a long time, fun times. I wish i could meet up with them everyday and juz rock out, like in the past, but alas work gets in the way. I'd love to meet my long lost friends from primary and secondary sch days and just see how they're doing. woooweee

I started running with Y after 5 long months out of exercising due to my knee injury. Very invigorating even though i jogged like an ass. It's been a pain as I honestly can't run properly. An old woman would run faster than me! Hopefully, i'll be keeping this up and make it a habit to exercise more.

Been doing stuff for prosaic magazine, be sure to check it out. The july edition is coming out soon and for all you poets/artists or music enthusiasts, i highly recommend getting a copy. All sorts of stuff will be featured, any enquiries you can contact me at savesthedays@hotmail.com. Or just leave a message here.

ahhh, baybeats2005 is finally coming, and i'm looking forward to it. Brandtson is coming down again this year. I'm sure they'll leave a mark on the crowd. Anyone who wants to go? Wanna join me in going? Come on you know you want to..! www.baybeats.net

Pics from the interview with The Pinholes (buy prosaic magazine and you'll find out more) *shameless advertising*



pics from laymin's bday




ahhh tired..just tired

freefall

laborious thoughts
unwanted movements
peaceful silence
inconsolable tears

hanging on
waiting for the right time
no longer will i dream
the suffering will be lost

the canvas folds
darkness breeds from within grotesque life forms
the root of my pain
comes from the bump on my head

no more treatment
no more mambo jambo
i will be free

i hear a voice in my descent
fall son fall
im waiting for you

Destiny

Ever wonder how you'll come across new people who will ultimately be great friends or even spouses. Different ways to meet these people, when uree working, on the internet, when ure walking on the streets, wrongly sent smses. It all just seems to work in a predestined order, dont u think? Like how one person is connected to so many others and how in the end, you will find the right one for yourself. It's really amazing how life works out for us all. Im waiting to find out where life leads me.

Hectic work week is coming to an end, hopefully i'll get enough days of offs to enjoy. Money is so hard to come by. The things people do for money just to live a life, i sometimes, in fact, most of the times, think money is the root of all evil. And to imagine, people in africa or third world countries are just barely surviving due to the poverty they face, while here, the friggin govt sees it fit to raise everything, bus, mrt fares GST and what nots. Even movie tickets cost a bomb now. What next? We have to pay for every tile we step on? Vampiric Singapore. All this supposedly to make a 'better' life for us. What about those who are struggling? Arent you making it worse for us? you assholes. Soon, i see Singapore divided into classes. The hardcore rich and the hardcore poor. If all these nonsense keeps up. Dont say i didnt warn u.

So many awesome bands are going to Australia to perform. How i wish i was there for these 3 months. Ted, ure one lucky arse. Eh Corrinne May - Save Me sedap! weee.

Me And You And A Dog Named Boo

Been working overtime lately to complete lotsa shit at work. All nonsense, but im doing it to get offs(sumthing like leave) to be kept so i can rock out with ted, nadia and the bacin allstars come december.

Looked at pictures on my computer, brings so many memories back. From when i was a scrawny kid, to the nerdy bacin, to the mat and to whatever i am now, it has been a fuckin awesome ride. I raise a glass to the process of growing up. YAMMSENNG!! Oh i had a scare yesterday when i couldnt log on to MSN at all! Luckily i could today though, miraculously. Im such an addict, somebody save me.

There's so much political bullshit going on in my camp, its all fuckin ridiculous. It seems the simple trait of helping one another is not evident in there. Rather, its irresponsible and selfish behaviour put on show for everyone to see. Never have i met such horrible people. It's funny at the same time too, coz u know the phrase 'You ripen with age'? or sumthing like that, it's more like 'you behave more like an arse with age', in my camp. bloody idiots.

Will be staying in camp for Monday-Tuesday and Friday-Saturday possibly to do duty. The work i do better get appreciated by the idiots or i will kill everyone of them there (imagine Carrie). OK maybe not kill but i'll hurt em! bad!! *garang face* GRGRGRG!! Feel my Wrath! Oh i wanna watch Star Wars:Return Of The Sith! yayayyay can u guys recommend any other movies to watch?

Have a very advanced Happy Vesak Day to all Buddhists!

Tyre Inflating Hose

a friend of mine showed a video 'made in singapore' on his handphone. This video contained footage of a girl in a tudung(headscarf) doing a certain sumthing on a guy's reproductive organ. It was really disgusting if u ask me, the fact that she actually wore that while doing the act. And there was yet another video between 3 guys and a girl, all malays. This really re-inforced my notion that malays/muslims in singapore are going astray in a major way, religiously. Im not a very religious person but to do those kind of acts with a holy garment worn must surely be damnable. Of course this view(of malays going astray) does not apply to every malay/muslim in singapore but i honestly think it applies to a major number of teens/adolescents. You can see a lot of em by just walking down Orchard Road on weekends, or by going to clubs ard muhamad sultan road or boat quay. The 'Acting all sachok and berg, piercing here and there, tattoos everywhere, dyeing hair a shimmering blonde' type of guys to the 'wearing teeny weeny skirts with cleavage that could hold 192890128 litres of water, slutty obnoxious' female types. It's no wonder malays are often looked down upon by the uber race in this society. It's probably Westernization or liberality, but at what cost? Simple values are easily forgotten and replaced with utter stupidity. Just a piece of my mind, all of this. I cant do much to change them, but dissing them sure is better than joining them.

On a lighter note, i've officially gotten sick of LAN gaming. After ard $30 wasted on it for the past week, i came to realise that the money i spent can freakin be used to buy the almighty WINNING ELEVEN 8!!! I was blinded by the little animals in my mind persuading me to splurge on a freakin game. Im gonna go home after work everyday and play with my polly pocket collection! So Cute! Hen Ker Ai Orr!! who needs transformers?

Can someone give me 38 dollars. Please call me at my new number, 1800-superberg83 to donate. Thank you many many.

Seawalkk ahh dokk

A hectic week has finally ended. Have been playing frozen throne in LAN shops over the week. It's surprisingly fun. Anyone wanna join me, do call 1900-fauziman83. Free pizza is always good. umm yummm. There've been so many things goin on this past week. More works of lyrical genius by Kevyn Tan Kai Boon and some works of pure insanity and outrageousness by the mat mat sachoks in my camp. They should rename my camp 'The Home of extreme sachokness and wackyness". do u guys get this cramp on ur calf whilst ure sleeping? i had it this past night it is painful as hell. Im still having it now. bloody hell someone cut away my calf. watching kingdom of heaven today. Hope it doesnt suck. Interesting that its about the legendary battle between the muslims and christians in jerusalem.

Musamia is what my officer in camp calls me for some strange reason. And apparently he even told me 'Why dont you change ur name to musamia after you ORD?'. Holy crap is he on heroin or something? How does fauzi become musamia? weird. I think hes not all there honestly. And since he calls me musamia all the time, even my campmates call me that. Guess this name will stick with me for quite some time.

Had a musical flashback the past night while chattin with a friend. The days when rufio and the ataris were a mainstay in the trusty old discman. fun times those were. Baybeats 2005!!! Lets goo peoples! weeeee


the musamia friendship poem